Originally published Friday, April 07, 2017
When you want neither sympathy nor advice... and you know you're not even going to listen to your own pep talk... yep, that's when radio (spark blog) silence takes over.
So you lurk, and you read the blogs of others, and you work on the fat between the ears. And pray for when the corner will be turned and "normal" and "sane", i.e. the healthy habits you've worked so hard on... become easy again. You marvel over things like "I'm tired of doing this" as though the thought were an alien! Or you puzzle over the boredom of sameness and wax nostalgic over indulgences that disappoint.
Ever notice that the spark blogs of the collective are kind of like biorhythms? When one or another of us is "down"... someone else may be at their strongest... and we feed on each other... eke our ways through our personal lows, seeing the future will return to the cycle's highs by reading.
In the end, you pull yourself OUT of your self-pity party (not much of a party, and I don't recommend inviting any friends to it)... and realize that the healthy habits are not something forced on you from without... they are YOU, now.
And life eventually comes back into balance and perspective... so that radio silence... was just the lap around the dark side of the moon... Apollo 13 is back on course for HOME!
* And the bag gets packed. And you eat what's in it, not the random junk that is floating in space.
* And you go to recess and realize that there's a lot going RIGHT, even in the radio silence.
* And you breathe, prioritize (stop trying to do it ALL, right now!), and delegate (stop trying to do it all YOURSELF)...
And you head out for yet another day, this time Friday, April 7th, 2017, realizing it's the only one you'll ever get. And you keep on Sparking!
